I’ll take you back
Sometimes I find myself holding back tears, this is pretty rare but there used to be a time in my life when I could not cry no matter how much I wanted or needed too.
I thought I was invincible, like a rock, nothing could shake me and in essence i was sort of proud of that. What had gotten me to that point was a combination of many things but mostly the divorce of my parents my freshman year of college in 2001.
So why am I so different now? simply put Jesus, I truly have been healed in the deepest ways possible and I feel SO alive.
Many times I wonder what is a relationship with Jesus really like? and I could never really figure it out, it is so intangible. I mean when we pray don’t we just throw words out their and expect God to hear them, or do we expect Him to interact with us. I had always been told growing up that I needed to have a “personal” relationship with Jesus. But no matter how hard I tried, no matter how much I learned it never really felt all that personal to me. That personal relationship felt more like a brick wall.
My breaking point was no definite moment but more so of a revelation that occurred over time, its simple, he will take me back, time and time again, no strings attached (which doesn’t seem fair but thats just the way it is). Much of my “relationship” with God was fueled by this sort of guilt about all of the sin I have in my life. But that is not what relationship is about it is simply about dwelling with each other simply as we are. Many times people get hung up on the fact that they have to change things before they can become a Christ follower or just be OK with God. That mentality is something that many Christians keep in their hearts which not only doesn’t allow the freedom of Christ in their own lives but really makes them miserable. BOTTOM LINE CHRIST CAME TO SET US FREE
Look at this image, I took it the other day behind my apartment. Just beautiful. I stood there and took it all in. It didn’t cost me a thing, all I had to do was accept it for what it was an enjoy it
Much like that I just need to accept who I am and rejoice in all God created me to be.
I will close my little blog post with this. As I sat at Black Hawk Church last week, pastor Chris was telling “the story” click here to listen to the sermon entitled “the rescue” as I sat there I felt overcome, my eyes wanted to pour out tears and I heard a small voice inside of me over and over again “I would do it again for you, you were worth it”
He would do it again for me and for you, time and time again. Rejoice in that, cherish its simplicity and be free to enjoy your freedom in Christ
